I'm actually very sick of people don't paying attention to our desease and depression, anxiety and deseases like those. I'm feeling soooo tired. physically and psychologically. I'm so tired of having to pretend everything is ok. Why it's me that have to pretend?
I'm so sick of people telling me to be happy, that I everything to be a happy girl. Man fuck you. I can't control myself, what part you don't understand?
THIS IS A FUCKING DESEASE, IF I HAVE CANCER YOU WOULD TELL ME TO FORGET AND JUST BE HAPPY? Comon guys!!
I'm ashamed of this and I shouldn't be!! I don't even know how to tell people. Like, "I guys, I'm crazy" "This is not a depression, itt's forever and ever, and don't have a cure". But people don't even care. They care more about their stuff, their stupid shit.
People who I told don't even care to do their research to help me.
Sometimes I just wanna yell with everybody and say "Fuck you, I'm sick, that's why sometimes I'm a bad person, what's your excuse ?"
If you think what I'm going trough, darling, YOU DON'T.
I tried to kill myself a couple weeks ago, and only 1 person help me. And I think even that person is already tired of me.
But a litlle update, after that day I didn't cut myself and I'm like "sober" from self harm 2 weeks from now, so YEYY.